littleprincess's Cancer Blog
April 29, 2008
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Its strange to me that I cannot remember the exact date that I got the phone call. I remember where I was and who I was with. It was just another day at work. I went to lunch and listened to my voice messages…my gynecologist called me, not the nurse. My usual coworkers were around me, but I felt all alone in a tiny box. I could not hear or see anything else as she told me she needed to refer me to a gyn onc. At this point I had not told anyone at work what was going on. I went and sat in my car, but did not cry. Nothing felt real. I felt as though I was watching something on TV. In fact, I felt nothing until 2 weeks later when I broke down and cried at work. Only my office manager knew, and I had asked her not to tell anyone yet. I went home and continued to cry for about an hour. I fell asleep, and when I woke up I started flipping channels on TV. There were several hours of cancer-based programming on PBS. I watched it all, and I felt it all.
I’m not yet a cancer survivor, but I do have cancer, and I am surviving every day…
I had an MRI last week of the pelvis and abdomen. There was no obvious indication of the cancer having spread outside of the cervix. My treatment will begin May 19 with a radical trachelectomy and pelvic lymph node removal. If the lymph nodes are clear, then that will be all. I hope and pray that will be all, but deep dark down I feel there will be more. I hope it is only my fear.
07.07.08 - 
Thanks for your support -
Dear Lisa; Welcome to the Blog for a Cure group of survivors. You will be amazed at some of the stories and of course the support that is given here. A truly wonderful place to visit. I’m so sorry you have been given this medical news and no doubt you are feeling scared. That is just natural and by the sounds of it, your Dr.s are moving quickly to resolve your situation. I was wondering why you are receiving a traceotomy? How does that relate to your cancer? Please keep us posted on your progress as I know you will over time have new supporters that you can count on. Good luck and prayers are being said right now on your behalf. Weezie from Canada eh
You ARE a survivor!
You are a survivor the second after you find out you have cancer and draw a breath. From then on you are a member of an elite family, not an easy,comfortable, family. A family of fighters and scrappers and “surviving to live and thrive and win” people, who know how precious life is and are determined to squeeze it for every ounce it has to offer.
You may well be scared and apprehensive and unsure, but know this…you are a survivor and you are loved and prayed for and welcomed into the family of survivorhood.
The lady who wrote crazy sexy cancer says, “I went looking for a cure and found a life”. I am getting that tattooed on me somewhere.
Come here often, it is a place of peace and hope and love.
Mac
Hi there,
Welcome to the family.
Sending a lot of Hugs.
Sherri
Hi, I just wanted to know how your surgury went.