littleprincess's Cancer Blog
May 27, 2008
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I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!
With not working I tend to get the days mixed up sometimes, then you add a Monday holiday where everyone is off. So, I woke up thinking today is Monday…but thankfully it is Tuesday, which means only 2 more days with this blasted foley catheter! We had a nice barbecue yesterday. My family has never been close, but I have to admit they’ve been great support through this, and I rather enjoy their company from time to time. =o)
Sunday I was going stir crazy sitting inside all day, so my sister came over and I thought we’d go do the grocery shopping. First off, I’m the type of girl that has to at least be clean and presentable in public, make up and all. I typically wear jeans and a t-shirt when I go out, nothing fancy for grocery shopping. Well, I am sooo swollen still that I cannot fit into anything other than the pajamas that my mom bought me. So I wore my pajamas to the store. I was paranoid about what people would think, but if it got too bad I was just going to raise my pants leg and show them my pee bag! Sadly, I did not get all my shopping done because I did get very tired. It amazes me how much of my energy has been zapped. I get out of breath just walking around the house sometimes-all from one little ol’ surgery?!
But I’m healing well, and grateful for everything! I’ve been incredibly lucky through all of this. I’ve been blessed with so much. Even though my marriage has been on the rocks, she has been my main support, as I would be for her. Luckily through her job I have fabulous insurance. I live near a big city with top hospitals/doctors. I’ve been able to not work and not worry about money. I have family nearby. I do admit sometimes I feel guilty about all of my “luck.” But I know I’ve been given so much so that I can go out and share. I plan to start a cervical cancer support/education group in my area, as I was not able to locate one. I have grand visions of how it will be…
Well, I’m off to do some housework. Just 2 more days…2 more days…
XOXO
07.07.08 - 
Thanks for your support -
When I am not feeling to good about something I have to do (like go to the store in pj’s) I realize that at least I am alive to do it, experience it, or feel the pain. The heck with what people think! My daughter is trying to come up with a snappy saying for a tee shirt to deal with people who stare. It sounds as if you are richly blessed, may you collect many more blessings. :)
Glad to hear you are the mend. Don’t sweat what people think of your PJs. Cancer can be very liberating. I used to worry about what people saw when they looked at me. I always tried to maintain a certain look. Now I realize how silly that was, my only goal now is to be comfortable with me. If anyone has an “issue ” it is just that, “their issue”.
You are a survivor and that is the only criteria you should think about…and you are doing that well indeed.
Good wishes and prayers
Mac
I like PJ’s. It is style now.
Now did you wear fuzzy slippers? LOL
Glad to kear you are out and about.
Mac you are a hoot. You alway have something to say to bring a smile to my face.
Hug Sherri
Oh yeah, “liberating” is a perfect word for this situation. At a super market I tore my wig off to reveal a bald head. Although I scared the crap out of a little 3 year old boy because of the sudden change of hairstyle I was not bothered by the stares. Let people think what they want because if they are scrutinizing you there is no way that they will ever reach your level.
That was my favorite part of my surgery – people caught on real quick that I was living in my pjs, and I got so many cute pairs! I’d walk around the complex with them on, go to the beach that way, let me tell you – with your bloated little tummy, you and elastic will learn to be best friends quick! And to that I say – let them see you in your PJ’s!