littleprincess's Cancer Blog
November 1, 2008
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I tried to post the other night, but my cat stepped on the keyboard and it deleted everything I had typed, then I was too tired to start over…so I’ll try again now.
With the passing of our dear friends death has been forefront on my mind. I found it a little amusing when a conversation at work turned to dying. One coworker just left her husband, and she wants to do all sorts of things, including skydiving. Six months ago I would not have considered it, but since facing cancer it sounds like fun. lol The conversation got pretty tense as most of my coworkers were of the opinion that skydiving is stupid. “Why would you willingly want to do something that could kill you?” My argument? “Hey, living can kill you!” There was more to it, but that’s a nice summary. I don’t know who all listens to country music, but there’s some darn good songs out there. And while we were all having this argument one was playing in my head. Particularly the chorus…”I went skydiving, i went Rocky mountain climbing, I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu manchu…Some day I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying.” Ok, everyone go find it and listen to it. I’m sure we can all relate. =o)
My checkup back on the 8th I had a surprise pap smear. Then I didn’t hear from them. I finally called last week and they told me it was negative. Then I got a little pissy when she told me that they don’t call if it comes back negative. I politely asked for a note to be put in my record to call me with EVERY test result. But in my head I was screaming and throwing things. I mean, why wouldn’t a cancer center call to give good news??! Oh well. So I’m glad that I got one negative…just about 14 more to go…
I’m sorry I’ve been quiet. After the hurricane I didn’t have satellite for several weeks, and now its down again. I’ve been trying to catch up on everyone’s posts. And I think about things I want to say, but then there’s so much that I forget what it is that I wanted to say.
I hope today finds everyone feeling peace and love.
XOXO
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Hi Lisa,
So glad to hear your test was negative, but I agree that they should call with the results . . . . no matter what! Don’t they know we are all waiting on pins and needles when it comes to these things!
I’ve heard the song you mentioned and it’s a good one and very appropriate for most people and especially those of us here on this blog.
Hugs,
Wendy
Lisa,
Living like you’re dying. An interesting concept. I never heard of the song you were talking about, but now I am curious to hear and see if I can relate. Who’s singing it (Sorry I am not a big Country listener)? Doctors can give us prognosis and numbers and all that, but it all comes to it, anything can come at anytime (being hit by a car, for example). One thing I hate to do is to be stricken by fear of having or re-having cancer for the rest of my life.
Good news on your negative results! It makes me mad too that they really don’t care to inform you of good news! I’ve been waiting for my mammo and ultrasound results on my left breast for a little while now, more than 1 week. I know if it is urgent, they will be calling me in a few days. So, I guess it is a good sign…
Enjoy catching up on everyone’s posts!
Hugs,
Yuyu
So glad pap was negative…the rest will be as well
I’m almost 5 years post cervical ca and am confident that I am cured. So sad about Gemma, but she wouldn’t want us to not be happy about our survival..she still inspires me .stay healthy and stay rasta
Sharon
I know the song you are talking about. I have heard it many times but I don’t remember the name. Good song.
I am so happy your pap smear was negative. I agree that they should definitely call with the good news. When we have had so much bad news we should be told the good news and not have to assume. I know they are busy but unless they have had cancer they don’t really understand how it feels.
Take care, my friend. My love, thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs, Joyce
Lisa,
I’m happy to hear everything was negative, how great! My APA called with my results even though everything was negative (about three years ago) so I guess I didn’t realize how rare that was. I have my first pap in about three years scheduled for next week. You’re definitely a part in motivating me to go get that done. Thanks for the update.
Dear Lisa; I know what you mean about catching up with all the emails. Since I support quite a few people on this blog, and I left the computer for atleast 3 weeks, I am still answering those posts for the last week. I am almost through but boy it is a task if you don’t keep up. Glad your test was negative, but what about all the others you mentioned. What tests are those?
It sounds like you have a great group at work to tackle a subject like dying. I imagine some just don’t get it. I have heard the song many times, Live like you were dying and it really hits the emotional nerve. It makes perfect sense as long as you have the energy and desire to do that. If you have to push yourself into something you really don’t want to do, then you aren’t having fun and that might feel like death, sooooo I think it is more like do what makes you happy. Be good and let me know about your other tests. Of course I am always interested in anything that pertains to someone’s health and try to help if I can.
Weezie
Lisa,
I like that saying. Live like your dying.
Have you ever watched the Bruce Lee move about his life? It’s a real good movie. At the end his wife is narrating. She says, some ask how Bruce died; I like to remember how he lived. With that said, I think that is the best way to remember someone..”How they lived”
Blessings to you and so happy your test was negative…
Robin
Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders & says…....Oh sh&@....she’s awake!
Dear Lisa,
Hooray for you. You know if I was working in a cancer center and when they receive those results and file them away I would be so anxious to call any patinet with cancer to give them good news. Don’t they know that we’re counting the days after any tests? Shame on them,,,,,,,
I have always wanted to sky dive though I really would like to go white water rafting. I mean the big waves with an experienced guide, of course. Three years ago when I took my daughter to Fl. for her winter break and the entire week they had planes flying up & down the beach pulling flyers advertising para-sailing, I asked Laura is she wanted to go and she wouldn’t budge. But, our last day there I talked her into it. It was a coast guard approved boat with very experienced and good looking guys. I told them we were newbies (like they couldn’t already tell that) When I was paying for it they asked me if we wanted to be dipped in the water, and after a moment I thought, Yeah, that sounds like fun, and so I paid extra for it. So, they take us in an inflatable boat to the big boat and we have to crawl over (gee, that certainly wasn’t one of my better moments) But, we get in the boat and they begin putting us in our harness seat type things and all was going great then they had us get on the back of the flat part of the boat. They asked if we are ready and we gave them a thumbs up, so like a big swish, we were up in the air so fast, you would have thought we were in a plane that was going down for Laura grabbed my hand and said,” I Love you Mommy” I told her that we were fine, then came the dip and it was fun though I didn’t realize that we would be totally immeresed, so that was quite a surprise. But, Laura was a certified lifeguard so I thought I was safe one way or another, and then we were up in the air flying like a bird. It was such a wonderful feeling. Then, I guess they thought they would give us an extra perk and suddenly we were dunked again and for some reason I was twirlling under the water, though fun, I didn’t expect it. Though, having said that, if anyone has never done that, I highly recommend it. It’s expensive but I felt it was the best 20 minutes of the entire trip…......
Lisa, if you have not read my post of today, I wanted to personally thank you for the invitatiion for Thankksgiving. I had a very unexpected 2 week hospital stay that seemed like 5 times that long for I wasn’t at all prepared for it. But, it gave me alot of time to think and after giving it much thought I felt very selfish to ask my friends here to intrude their Thanksgiving Holiday. I am just going to have to adjust somehow whatever it takes of being alone. To be honest, I forgot who I was for so many years and I was just,”MOM”. You hve such a wonderful giving heart to invite and I will probably take you up on it someday, but not on a holiday and when I know you are not going through treatment. I can’t tell you how it warms my heart that you would invite me, but I will take a rain check and we’ll have alot of fun doing all sorts of things. Again, thank you my dear friend,,,,,,Take Care, Patty
Hi;
Thanks so much for commenting on my Blog! I sent you an email :).
Lisa,
I’m late in commenting, but only just now read your update. I cried a lot when I got home from Iraq, for a good year or so. I wonder if after going through something traumatic we realize how fragile life really is and become more sentimental for it. I think in the same way that older people become sentimental (maybe after seeing so much in their lives) tragedy or trauma does the same thing. Just a theory… I don’t cry as much anymore, but I’m definitely not the stone-cold heartless person I used to be :)